Something I could never have

Alone from the skies turn bright till the dawn rise above upon us. Without a single soul to bother, I flock around the greatest moments of life alone to the park. Taking some really good breath-stopping walks and later to woodland's causeway point to get myself workedup. It was fun indeed but I still miss those smiles I use to share with one another. Will it ever return? Or will I just have to be like this forever?